Why did I write a book about what happened?
The majority of the content in Refuse to Drown was written during and immediately after the time of the events. It was a therapeutic process for me, the purging of the emotions, pain and incredible struggles of those days.
As time went by, I healed, became whole and joyful again. Those closest to me finally convinced me that there was value in sharing my story and the journey that had taken me full circle.
There are three main reasons I finally decided to write Refuse to Drown.
First, I want to open the door to hope and healing for others by sharing my journey into brokenness as well as share what gave me the strength to travel the path back to wholeness.
Second, I wanted to find a thread of something positive in the midst of something horrible: otherwise it is just another senseless tragedy. That can’t be all there is to the story!
The third reason is actually the main reason I wrote the book: I wanted to inspire at least one person or family to seek help. For a long time after everything happened, I felt a lot of guilt. Could I have been a better parent? Could I have done things differently? Could I have somehow stopped it all from happening?
I’ve come to the important understanding that I can’t take back what has happened. Hopefully, by sharing my story, I will motivate a family or an individual to get help and in the process spare another family and community from something terrible.
It’s likely I’ll never know if this occurs and that’s okay. All that matters is that someone was helped, found their path back to wholeness and that somewhere someone got the help they needed before it was too late.