This past Sunday morning, during my prayer / quiet time, I was asking, “What is holding me back from being closer to You?” Eventually a single word came to my mind, “Fear”. At first that seemed almost silly to me, “Fear?” So, I asked for understanding, and soon an awareness of the many areas where fear is part of my life started to come over me: finances, relationships and failure to understand and live out God’s purpose for my life. It was difficult to admit that I still cling to fear and insecurities in these areas. After so much, fear still looms in my life…
But the message that followed is the thought that has really stuck with me. I still have fears because I am not “All in with God.” It isn’t possible to partially trust God. It isn’t possible to partially Love God. Either we’re “All in” or we’re not. To “trust God” in certain areas of our lives and not others is ultimately not trusting God. To say “I Love you God.” But, to not live it every moment of every day, is ultimately not to completely Love God. The not being, “All in with God.”, is why fear is still present in my life.
The good news is that God is “All in” with us and Loves us no matter where we are in our journey. He is and will always be there, we’re not alone and as soon as we’re ready to go “All in” with Him, His arms will be open and waiting! Hopefully, some day, I’ll be “All in” with God and know the true Peace of being with Him in all ways.
Where are you not “All in” with God?